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Nobody Told Me...


Nobody told me falling and failing were part of the process. That in the process of achieving my goals, there are so many times I won't get it right. That failing is part of the process. Even though this is difficult to accept I admit it is true.

I am saying this because just after I reach some level of improvement or advancement it is usually followed by some (major) or minor setbacks. Now, even though I am 3 months into my weight loss/bikini body program, I feel like I am starting all over again.

 I have learned so many things and I still continue to learn. I have experienced first hand the importance of consistency, the value of focus, discipline, determination, flexibility endurance, patience and most recently of course that mistakes and setbacks are only part of the price that one has to pay for ones dreams.

The "people" part and the "what they think" factor is as real as ever to me as I get a lot of questions as to why I am training so hard. I get questions like "are you training to become a coach? "are you training for the Olympics?" "are you okay?" and most recently, I get people wondering if I am jobless. Through these barrage of questions I have come to terms with the fact that, I could either look at the cup half full or half empty, it could mean that "they" sense the passion with which I go after my goals and are challenged by it, or otherwise but regardless, I have come through this experience to realize that in chasing after my dreams I must put the "PEOPLE" factor and all they represent aside and believe they don't exist and that the only real thing in this whole equation is "ME." I am the principal actor in all this. 
I had to come to terms early enough that this is the price I have to pay and the challenges I must face and since I have come to accept it, I no longer spend energy fighting against the wind...

Anyway to be more specific, right now I'm struggling with my appetite. Ever since I doubled the distance I cover each morning (approximately 7km) twice weekly, I have realized that I get hungrier often and I don't (for now), have the required discipline to control my appetite.  I seem to have lost equilibrium. I need to build up more will power and discipline. Plus, exams come up in December and I need to study... I haven't been... I need a change. I honestly feel like I am starting all over again...    

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